[Hate]

April 4, 2007
so.my story
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everybody wants to know what i do�where i come from�how i got here�what the fuck am i even here for� so im going to tell this story once and once only.

in 2003 i had just been hired at www.alphamodels.net as a webdesigner. i did not take the job in the end but in short they wanted me to run and half own a company that releases exclusive video content of inside the playboy mansion. i had about 30 world famous models lined up to paint. i was 18 years old. so anyways i saw jenna jaimeson in an eminem music video and i was talking to her about doing a painting of her. so i did sum crazy shit and if u werent there u will never know but within no time i had 60 gangsters all in one spot throwing the biggest party hip hop had ever seen. i had fucking every one of them releasing music like crazy from freestyles to full blown chart topping tracks. alot of those are on my website..alot arent and alot on my website had nothing to do with any of it. but we will get into why im using those later�.

i saw i was getting famous really quickly and very powerful�to be honest i couldnt not handle the pressure of all my childhood icons producing music with me and for me�. i did not at the time want that life that they live and to be honest i still dont�..but i was the idiot that sparked the hip hop industry recreating tupac and biggie smalls on a track�now�its one thing to do soemthing like that and think its kewl�i think its amazing�but its also very wrong�i think dead rappers should rest they deserve that much in life� but whats done is done and even i do enjoy it and love it. so now u know WHY i am doing this and you sort of know HOW. i am using even new music from these rappers because they really dont care if i do or not�. people think im a joke cause i didnt run around telling the world at the time�.but ive never wanted fame or even fortune and i didnt like who i was starting to become when i first got those things.

i recently spent 35 thousand $ on a video game�. 8 thousand my own but 35k in total. www.lineage2.com anyways the server i play on has these rich brat teens who spend 10k on an account and they hurt the kids who dont have money to ever spend on it� so i lost 8 grand because the boss of this team reported me for cheating� fare enough i admit to cheating but he thinks the sun shines out his ass and they cheat a billion times more than any of us. so yeah i wanna go kick his ass and spend sum real money on it but back to my story. so i had left art in my past and didnt want to draw anymore for various reasons but jordan mccoy from badboy entertainment would talk to me alot and draw pictures with me..stupid stick men but we had alot of fun�i dont remember ever drawing with other people like that so i was having fun with art again�stupid simple fun�.so i started drawing her a picture and it all spun out of control and now im here.

so if ure names DREW and your head gets spun by the way i act�now u know why im doing this�. this isnt sum joke and im not playing around. i just put my website up to work on it and see if everything functions ive always wanted my own website so i started making 1�this too has spun out of control i feel like i have to keep thosuands of hits a day but jesus give me a break i just started this and its only up here for me to work on.

i could quite possibly get shot doing what im doing�but it wont be by my affilaites it will be by one of you crazy people who say ure gonna kill me because im talented�. but i could also get hit by a bus tommorrow so i really dont care.

now�the reason i ever picked up a paintbrush���. there were lots of reasons but the reason i mastered it�. was because i knew it could make BIG money but i also knew i had to work every single day for years�and i did. i did it all for a girl named Jolene. i honestly never want to even speak to her again but i will still always draw for her� i made all of this mess on this planet just so i can oneday get back to her and say look. this is how u make me act�. but life isnt like a painting��life doesnt care for colors.

so. thats my story�believe what u want�fuck it e-mail me and ask me questions�. but dont ever threaten me again� because i will kill you first.

go check out my website www.hoodige.com

[Drew]

Hahahaha oh man. You bring me to tears, seriously.

[Hate]

drew ftw. duck man this post will turn into a feeding frenzy

u know what nathan said roundeye... he said if ben wants to be that way then fuck him. so fuck you

[Tzan]

Hehe you know him ?

I thought it was just great spam

[Drew]

Yeah, this guy posted the most hilarious stuff at Eatpoo. It was pretty much what he's saying here. I guess he's serious? That makes it more funny. Sometimes, though, it's really hard to figure out what he's talking about.

Hate, was that second part directed at me? I don't think Roundeye comes here. I have no idea who Nathan is.

[Hate]

no it wasnt directed at you.... but check this out man its going to be my webdesign company.

nathan drew that guy

heres inside

[Hate]

lalalalalala
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rain gently kisses the petals of a flower coressing its sexy shaft. juicing all over the soft
elegant petals.the sun comes out and kisses the raindrops and the glisten in the air is almost too
perfect to exist.the world gets too hot and everything spins out of control, we all fall off and
we watch our everything fade away like a dying mans life. we choke. i reach out
and grab everything worth soemthing to me, i can never take my eye off that diamond. Not again.
no never. you belong to me. i draw a bear for your honey jar then i eat your stickyness like a litte
metal bumble bee stinging plastic oranges, liking it off my fingers like an acid fiend.
your pot bubbles and i poke it like a witches brew.
the devil runs off shaking his fist at me saying he will get me back for this.
your love shakes heavens walls and i could spend forever running around
kissing the ground you walk on.my kisses reign like mist over the subtle rippels of a calm ocean
we meet in a still place above all existence and the entire unvierse fades away for a single kiss,
it lasts an eternity and everytime our eyes meet we end up in that hollow dream, that one thing
we can claim as our own

[Hate]

Tissue
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or ill cry a thousand tears and dissapear in a puddle of
obsession hate and greed and watch my own eyes bleed while my soul
vanishes into the dust and i lust over you for an eternity. and live
inside forever dreaming of how things were meant to be.
A new religion
seeps into the veins
of the earth and evil sustains an overflowing rebirth while we all send
the planet to fucking hell
some bitch nurse gets food, spit and foam in her face while my mind races,trying to
feed me some knowledge from an old abused raggedy hand covered in shit from the next funny farm toy.

bouncing off of closed walls held together by needles and threads in a jacket of obscene profanity
against all things worthy of a glimmer in my eye
restrained by the conflict of everybodys own truth of how reality should be
fuck you all and fuck everything youve ever been inside of me
youre like a maggot eating away at my brain like a cancer while fragments of my illusion
seep down the gutter in blooded vile, while i lay smashed up on the pavement like a piece of trash
left to rot and become one myself in a world full of sausage on a string dangling like snot
from some brats fucking face

[Hate]

city kids
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i lick my swollen lips and press them against hot ass while
gas overflows my space like a panty invasion. chicks with 6 clits falling from the
heavens layed out like angels or their God crucifed on a cross for the
sake of our own misunderstanding of what it means to be animalistic in a sick world.
mother earth dies and we all weep like immature little children who throw their toys out their cots
cursing at the skies like ants trying to climb a pillar of success that leads to an
everlasting nothingness yet still continues forever.a dead mans ear listens to the ground like a
shrunken head around a witchdoctors neck

my arteries get clogged by cheeze on toast flooding media and hype
flicking channels past the infomercial station
i look into forever cause now is a blink of an eye flashing through my friends mind
rappers flow over beats in tongues while the flames of hell gush over all things innocent and pure
the devil is placed in a box of isolation when heaven reigns down fire and every lier is exposed in
light that melts the flesh like an idiotic fool burning plastic in the air to flag down the pigs
to his grow operation in the suburbs.

[Hate]

Stink Fist
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Seeing inverted visions of an obscure reality plastered on the wall with blame.
sychosis grabs me by the balls flinging reality in the other direction making my path a blur.
my perfect self approaches me in the mirror while i stare at
the difference between reality and a lie.my eyes blase like fire like a screaming banchee
hellbent even more than the part of me that is an alley fiend while i walk around awake
inside my dreams.

so killer sick leaving you dead in vomit puking. you cant puke when
youre dead but when your blood turns cold the kettle really boils it steams and whistles
like a fucking choo choo train of some little sick dememted boys
trainset while his broken grandfather who shits in diapers thinks he is 2 different people
pretending to
be the same. living in a world full of tricks and characters. they all become secret enemies
the closer they get to the burried treasure these poems protect with stink fist.

[Hate]

Ghetto-Blasted
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an abused monkey dangles from a dead tree inside a girls locket while she bleeds out
dying in some bush. stabbed to death with a skrewdriver and raped over a dolla.
heads explode like angel dust in the ghetto
the ghetto is a dream that never comes true, but a dream i can never truthfully let go of

no wannabe thugs from the suburbs. none of that in the ghetto.
just poor skinny black babies begging for a slice of bread with the biggest smiles
upon their faces with flys and shit hovering around their heads.
none of that pretty stuff in the ghetto.

an old madala g dances by the tin shack shibean with a beer while we smoke a zol
the whole world disspears ,when u in the ghetto. and so does your life

[Hate]

March 31, 2007
Loyalty
Filed under: Uncategorized � HATE @ 8:34 pm
Within myself is a perpetual maze of imperfection so extreme that when i narrow my thoughts down to nothing more than a glimpse of your angelic smile, everything slows down makes sense and feels perfect. She claims to not want to hurt me or cause me pain however at times i want it to hurt. I want it to hurt so bad that my rage imitates that of a split atom bursting into the Heavens with hope of reaching an angels kiss. With that being the sole vaccine that is able to cure and tolerate my bleeding heart. I want her to cry crimson tears for me so they may free down her porcelain like face and onto her breast and i may approach it like an ever so finely crafted chalice to drink the drink of love life and death. I will not give up, this love will glorify with premium magnitude into something far superior than anything man made and it will exceed the laws of humanity within wich we are bound almost contradicting the word restrict in a world thats far from perfect,perfection itself will become an understatement within the world of defenition and we will redefine the word love as we know it

[Tinusch]

Someone pack this guy a bowl

[Gort]

All in favor of moderation, say aye
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- Tom Carter

"You can't stop the waves but you can learn to surf" - Jack Kornfield

[Nag]

Yarrr!.... I mean ayeee!

[iandredd]

Somebody put a call through to John Singleton, its Boyz 'n the Hood for the myspace generation.

[Hate]

YO DREW!!!!! i got models out the ass heres 2 new hotties all over the project. they pornostars. im hiring sumbody to interview all of them its a paying job its yours if u want it.






yum.

[Hate]

and i hate fucking myspace.

[Drew]

[Hate]

u dont want it? ok i have people begging me to do it. suite yourself

[Drew]

Alright, I can always use more money. PM me the details.

[Impaler]

Why do you hate myspace? Seems like it would be right up your alley. Bad poetry, namedropping, ridiculous internet machismo, bizarre forums posts written as blog entries, etc. But I'm just fanning the flames, and that's no way to behave.

So, in short. Nobody cares. Seen it, been there, etc. Take it somewhere else, but leave us a link for entertainment's sake.
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QED, sort of.

[Hate]

http://www.hoodige.com//skitzofranic/index2.html

[Drew]

Are you going to PM me the details of that job or what?

[Freebooter]

For a second I thought this was yet another comeback of Ryan Walsh.

[Hate]

i got a big fucking beef in this video game shit. 80 grand of gun clapping.

[Hate]

the job is taken now sorry drew.

[Drew]

Yeah, that's a shock. Hey, remember when I told you that I seriously don't understand half of what you're saying? I get that you were full of shit when you were talking about the job, but that post with the art has me baffled. I know you didn't do it or have anything to do with it, but I don't have any idea why you posted it or what your comments mean. Can you explain it? Remember, simple sentences. Don't go off about your time in the hood and how people want to kill you.

[octavian]

Oh please, oh please come back HATE.

I'm going to be headed to grad school and my dissertation is about the incarnation and evolution of online personalities. You and Ryan Walsh were certainly on the top of my list. I'm not being snarky either. I find all of this terribly fascinating... slightly depressing too, but fascinating none the less.

As I mentioned, I'm being dead serious. Does anyone else find the manifestation of alternate ego's via the web fascinating? I don't want to start a flame war or anything and I'm not poking fun at those who are clearly in need of help, I really want to study it and maybe speculate as to how culture will evolve electronically.

if anyone is serious about discussing this and sharing opinions, I'd be happy to start another thread.

[FallDamage]

In a certain sense, we develop a new functional ego for almost every new life scenerio we encounter; an ego tailored and adapted to the new environment based upon a number of fairly obvious factors including, where we're coming from, what we would like to achieve with respect to the new situation, past experience etc.

The internet is often such a radical departure for certain induviduals because of the extent to which they can leave their old self behind, and also the dramatic lack of accountability.

Everything I've said so far is fairly obvious, and so (imo), is what follows; we're in the process of emerging from the wild west era of the internet, and as web culture becomes both more formalized, and more tied into our real world egos (ala facebook and such) outrageous online behaviour will become increasingly rare, as real world egos and online egos no longer suffer/benefit from the divide they used too.

Increasingly people who now grow up with the internet will develope a sense of web ego that incorperates their real life social structure, and thus, their real world social principles are more likly to intuitivly translate into internet behaviour, meaning less ridiculousness, or at least, no more than they would display in the real world.