[[Shizo]]

work work work work, 3 days off, repeat

(warning: some sad and pointless crap ahead)
The job is wearing me out, 10 hours a day is not too bad, and 3 days off is good too. But somehow on work days i seem only to come home, sit on computer an hour, then go to sleep, and wake up to go to work again
My job sucks balls because it's cheezy and boring (yet another )

Lately i've been overcoming my lazyness (in small steps, i'm still damn lazy.. or tired, or uninspired, or just a crappy human being hehe). So i'm slowly coming back to 2d, 3d, and music.
I live with parents (mostly with my mom cause i dont talk to my dad). I think i'm too dependant.
Anyways, i gotta have some results (money) soon from either of the things im trying to get into. Cause if i dont succeed, i'm gonna have to go to college for some crappy AS/400 courses and get even more into the job i hate doing
I wanna be a freaking celebrity! God DAMN!
But it's ok, i'll just keep trying.
At work i've met a nice girl and i have that feeling for her, but she has a boyfriend that has a music studio and he's 28 years old (bam! - punch in the face). And i feel if i had lotsa moneys and independance, i could easier get that girl over to my side (heh i dont know why i think so, even though i only talk about girls when im really serious and when it's not just about looks, so money have no place here.. weird). You notice my sig yet, B*TCH!?! ehheHEAha

Oh yeah, anyone have been in this type of crap-life situation and came out of it victorious? I want moral support dammit!!!

*waits for moral support*
*covers from rotten eggs*

[Impaler]

If you want to be happy, don't make yourself UNhappy by wanting to date some girl who doesn't want to date you. Get over her, and your life will seem a lot better.

As for a job, hey. Everyone starts somewhere. Go work at a temp agency. Get an internship at a radio station or record company. Go work as a secretary for a symphony. You can't always expect to jump straight into making records or drawrings, or whatever.

Go to college for a few years. It's the thing to do in America nowadays.

And stop worrying about the fairer sex-- their only true purpose on earth is to remind us men how vile we actually are. Ignore the ladies and celebrate your bachelordom! Act on your own volition! Believe me, getting some hot girlfriend won't make you independent.
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[[Shizo]]

Hey, i just heard a song "Bloodhound Gang - The Bad Touch" and i'm feeling better already! All i have to do is make some crap beats and a bunch of crap lyrics and i'm all set!

Money, hoes, and Escalades - here i come!

[Awetopsy]

dont feel bad Shizo.... We all love you..

[Ragnarok]

Girls can be evil...
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Seigetsu

[AndyT]

[Andromeda]

(Feeling better already ? .. damn .. I must not let this happen ..)

Very few people come out of it Victorious man ... most of the time they sink so deep into their crappy lives that they come to accept it for what is it, and that in a way made it 'less-crappy' (cos they actually forget that theyre leading a crappy life hehehehe).

then some others try and try to get out of their crappy lives, to look for something better, but maybe they didnt try hard enuff or maybe they just didnt hae the luck ... cos these guys end up old or dead before they get what they want.

and about the girl .. oh yah .. i knew a girl like that a long time back ... no, she didnt have a 28yr old bf with a music studio ...

but she was only 2 years older than i was and she was a model ... she was with Elite� too ...fine woman she was .. rough at times, and gentle when she needed to be ...a mixed blood she was ..
she gave me her pictures too .. cos she knew i liked her ...
anyway yada yada yada .. bla bla bla, she said "but i only think of you as my little brother .. youre nice to me that way" ....
oh yah, drag me along why dont you ...
and that day i nearly shot someone .. if i had a gun.
anyway that was the past ...

i need to go take my medcine now ..
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[merlyns]

I'm having the sorta same problem I tryed to fix it with buying lots of things.



it didn't help....

-david
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[Gort]

please pardon the typical motivational stuff, but here goes...

You can have it. You can get it, but it isn't without hard work. Set some goals and stay focused; do that and every day is a day closer to where you're trying to get to. Take solice in knowing that you're trying. Keep trying.

You can do it; there is no one - and I mean no one - stopping you but yourself.

Don't get discouraged; it's a long, often risky road full of accomplishent and failure, and it will go on forever. Work evey angle you can. If someone comes along and knocks you down, don't crawl away; get up, dust off and move around 'em.

It's your life, so get busy living.


A personal experience:
When I decided to go back to school I was determined to keep going and finish. In order to go to school and have a job that offered a flexible schedule towards my academics, I had to do some jobs that I didn't really like. I hated making pizzas and washing dishes, and I hated delivering 40 pound bags of ice all weekend while everyone was enjoying themselves, but those were all part of the things I had to deal with in order to get to where I wanted to be.

I did it.

But the journey goes on....like I said - it's ongoing.
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"You can't stop the waves but you can learn to surf" - Jack Kornfield

[Chris]

One of my favorite lines in a movie is from Shawshank Redemption, when Tim Robbins told Morgan Freeman in the prison yard,

"You have to get busy living or get busy dying".


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[AndyT]

My favorite line from Back To The Future,

"If you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything."
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[[Shizo]]

Ok, then i'm on the right track! *Opens up Photoshop, FruityLoops, and 3dmax* hehe!

I also think it's how you look at things, and not how things actually are. But it's hard to change the way you look at things.. but i'm doing that now.

[Atherium]

Shizo I totally feel for ya man.

My day is like this...

6am. Up, go for run, work out.
730am. Get in car and prep for commute
830am. Find parking
9am to 5pm. Sit in film class
5:30pm. Go to work
1am. Finish work
2am. Bed

And somehow in all of this I need to find time to work on my script, draw, eat, and try to maintain the amazing relationship with my girl. Oh and on weekends I work full time as well. So yeah I know what it is like to feel as though the world and your work schedule has you by the balls but you just have to keep that chin up man, I know how cliche and obnoxious that sounds but it is so true. Honestly, being a (dont roll eyes lol) christian and my faith in what this world is has pulled me through alot of this schedule while still maintaining my sanity as well as a smile.

And I know what it is lik to be home and milking the parents. I hate it so much but film school is so expensive that they understand why they have a 22 year old taking up the entire third floor to their condo.

You just have to keep the future and your goals in perspective every day man, we all have to fight for what we want and it is that struggle which places that emmense value on the reward of the life to which we want. You'll get it man, just keep fighting.

[paranoid?]

Don't set your expectations and desires too high....it affects your self-esteem in a negative way. Also, be optimistic when getting into something....pessimism is bad, the power of suggestion is stronger than you think....if you're always sceptical or douptful of your own capacities you will often end up failing or bringing you down enough to fail it.

no one has precognitive abilities and projection can have negative repercussions.....just live on with the idea that success only comes with hard work.

and also, with all of this you have to stay realistic.....hence the "not too high expectations". What I said can be seen has some kind of "vicious circle"....true its the same pattern, but its a positive "vicious circle"
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[Periadam]

Great that you're trying to change your outlook on life, Shizo... too many people don't realize that that's the only way to be happy. Nothing else is gonna do it. It's amazing how much can be accomplished by saying "Haha, ooh man, life is FUN!" Then run around in glee.

Since I started that, I have more fun than anybody I know, and life's great! It's absolutely incredible how much fun I have.

And don't worry about the girl... my favourite reaction to this sort of thing is to say "Meh, she's missing out." And then be done with it
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[[Shizo]]

I think i'm subconciously afraid of doing things.. I have chronic procrastination since birth! HELP!
I notice when i work on something, after a little while i try to go check my mail, or read some message boards, or check out what's new on TV Like i did right now hehe.
Ok back to work! Let me go get a drink and look at tv first..lol

[Drunken Monkey]

Well i am getting out of the same sort of situation. I think procrastination and laziness is something people like us share in their dna, if you get what i mean bratan. So here is my little story. Maybe it will help you decide to do something.

I was working at a startup.com that has been hanging by a thread since the bubble burst, and it really sucked. My ideas were stolen - often in front of me because of my 'not so clear' english. Management only respected 'yes men' programmers who are willing to bang out absolute shit code just to do the fix, they didn�t seem to notice why later shit hits the fan and everything needs to be recoded again and again.... That pissed me off, and i was very depressed. Sitting home playing counterstrike didn't seem to help much. I was very unproductive. Felt useless.

So I got sick of it all and decided to do something.

One was to start exercising again, lack of which i now know was the 80% of the cause of my depression and laziness. I have more energy now than ever before to do shit i need to do vs. laying on the couch watching TV or playing counterstrike.

Second was to quit that dreaded place i like to call 'Egomaniacs in Suits.com' where I worked, although not stupidly, i secured another much better job first.

Third was to get back into doing things i love doing in this life and not waste any time on stuff that is irrelevant to my progress. I started drawing/painting/programming regularly and try to read at least 50 pages a day from books about those disciplines. Also saving money to go study at art schools in LA.

And fourth is making sure i sleep at least 8 hours a day. This goes along with exercising.

Once I started doing these things, I became a much happier person. I didn't feel like shit in the morning at work because i wasted last evening on irc. I know I am moving in the direction I want to go, and I am happy.

I don�t know if what you need is motivation or change of the lazy lifestyle, I think those things are interrelated. Once you brake one of them, the other one falls too. See what I mean? Once I started exercising and changed my priorities everything kind of came together.

Its something like this:

Excersize = energy

Energy+direction = happiness

I guess the motivation comes when you can't take it anymore. Gotta snap that shell you grew around yourself.
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[Drunken Monkey]

Another thing i decided not to do is to get obsessed with anything. That includes girls. Keeps the mind clear and life easier. You like her? She got a boyfriend? Forget her. You'll find someone else you'll like the same later. And they wont have a 28yr old boyfriend.
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[radical travis]

wow, your life is a lot like mine. I also dabble in 2d,3d,music, also writing and am living with my parents, and things are in a bit of a rut for me. Maybe it's because I'm scattering myself too much always thinking there is a new way where I can make it big, instead of focusing on one thing. I feel the same way when I'm working for other people like it just saps up all of my time and energy, but when I'm not I guess I'm kind of lazy still. I mean I can come up with exciting sounding new creative plans a million a minute but doing them... well I've made some headway but all said and done it's funny to be an infant already imagining himself a wise old master, hehe.

I'm going back to college in the fall, there really aren't many other choices except the military or find a good job, I wouldn't do the former, and haven't had that much success with the latter. It will make the folks somewhat happy anyway, although sometimes the artificiality at college bugs me. But I don't care, got to buckle down and do something definite. Plus college undoubtedly opens doors in terms of job opportunities.

personally, I wish I could stop thinking about this making it big crap and just enjoy life a bit more on the simple level, but I don't know I guess I got it stuck in me young

so anyway I'm not the guy to advise cause I'm still winging it myself, but good luck and let me know how things are going once in awhile

[radical travis]

hey drunken, just out of curiosity what sort of exercise do you do? I notice also then when I am more physically active my energy retains its momentum and I am a much more effective person and not so lazy, but the thing is like everything else I am scatterbrained I guess... and start thinking of a million sorts of exercise and then not doing any of them. What are some good ones?

[paranoid?]

womens....hehe....they aren't all a possibility but they sure are all a distraction.

get it? =P
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[elam]

What Drunken said.
No matter how shitty I may feel on any particular day, I always exercise. It's always a huge stress reliever.

And get rid of your fucking TV. TV is *SATAN* No really. You'd be amazed at how much time gets piled up watching that stupid shitbox.
And get disciplined dammit. Set monthly or weekly goals. Write them down. Get a calendar/organizer and set time asided when you will do the things you want to do. I try to set aside at least 30 min, a day for my various hobbies, which adds up because I've got too many.

It might help if you got some different pants, with the ladies I mean.

[elam]

woops. Double post

[Drunken Monkey]

Travis,
Don't wanna sound like a marketing dolt but i am doing almost exactly what this guy sells http://www.musclenow.com , pretty intense, but not time consuming like many other systems of the sort.

And then i run untill i start seeing blue. Speaking of which. I gotta run :]
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[radical travis]

ah. thanks for the link man I'll check it out.

[[Shizo]]

Drunken Monkey: oooh... yeah bomsh, i know what you mean! LOL
I think excersizing is very good indeed. I myself started going to the gym again and i certainly feel better. I like the energy+direction=happiness formula. I'm not so obsessed with that girl anymore. I'm playing it by ear. Yeah she has an old time boyfriend, and yeah my dreams are not realistic.. but ARRR!!!!! shutup ! lol

radical travis: you and me must create some small goals for ourselves, like elam here.. That is the way.

YOU LACK DISCIPLINE! (and i do too)

[edraket]

I think it is good to chase your dreams. But you shouldn't postpone being happy untill you reach them. Cause you will not!
By the time you have reached that point that is in your dreams now you will have different dreams, higher goals etc..
Work on reaching your dreams for all you are worth and be prepared to do so for the rest of your life. But live in the present.


Geez that sounds dramatic....

[klaivu]

My dog lost his nuts. That's some serious emotional pain.

[paranoid?]

Hehe ever considered taking up some Martial art class Shizo?
they ar great for your discipline....self-esteem.....confidence....consentration..etc...etc.

really, you should consider it.

I've been doing martial art since I'm a kid...Teakwon-do, Judo, Aikido, Brazilian Jujitsu and now Kenpo which is great. I have a mastery in quaterstaff and now getting into swords/epee
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[Chris]

Drunken boxing is always fun too
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