[Totuus]

Well, here is my 5 hour (guess) work.
I took one of my old drawings and colored it and it's based on one of my poems, I'll post it later.
Anyway, here's the result.
*sight* have to go to sleep.

[Ax0]

My God!!! She has no eyes!!! No eyes!!!

Just remarkable clothing texture.

Must...go...to...bed..zzzzz

[sock]

really beautiful!

wanna see the poem too

g'night

[Pringle]

I like the picture, post the poem...

[Shaded]

Janies got a gun. Her whole worlds come undone...

[Totuus]

Seen better days
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Chapter 1
Last school day


At school I was no friend,
but it really didn�t matter,
because it was about to end.

I spend most of my time
with the headmaster.
He says i�m a disaster,
but then says that there
is a way to end my
school faster.

Like in drugs, I looked his
blurring face,
until his voice was only
a vibration of bass.

"So, have you decided"
he asked.
Dragging his chair closer
to the basket.
Closer to me.
"I have to flee." I said.
"I have to go for a pee."

We should�ve meet in
some hotel on saturday,
but I refused,
�cause I didn�t see
the good of it anyway.

And after all,
I was all ready sixteen,
a grown-up I mean.
Aloud to decide things.
It gave me mindwings.


After another WAY
boring schoolday.
I jumped down the
streets, trying to avoid
all the crap sticking
to my bare feets.

I passed two guys
fighting for a piece
of meat, shadow walker
dodging the heat and
kids arguing for what
to eat.

But what happend then
and what it meant,
was supposed to be seen only
with eyes of mine.
What i saw was a nice
sunshine. It started to
rain and then in the lane,
someone called my name.
Is this somekind of game,
I asked to my self.

I thougth I was coming
mad, that i had lost it
real bad.
Then the rain stopped.
I was surprised what
I found, there was a
fad lying on the ground.

He had a brown mane
and black eyes,
I know it looks insane
to ride it,
�cause I was stared
by many guys.
But I don�t care because
we are a perfect pair.

After I found Mr.Fad
on the street.
It had been all I would
ever need.

"I ride and ride,
to home I ride.
To porch, to porch
my fad I tied."
Babble and my stepping
feets echoed on the
streets.

Mr.IT was sitting
on the chair.
To wake IT I did�t dare.
"Go to clean. Start
from the dishes."
IT shouted.
You�ll get your
fucking dishes to the
fucking pieces,
I said in my mind.

With IT, I mean my dad,
IT always takes my fad
and promises to give it
back after IT has had me.
It makes me mad.

IT puts ITs pants on
the chair,
and takes a grip of my
hair.

After it�s over IT says.
"Clean the tears,
and bring me the beers.
And don�t speak, you hear!"
I ran weak and in fear,
that IT�s going to throw
me to well if i tell.
I hope IT will go to hell.

Chapter 2
Grammy

I left from home my head
full of anger.
I was walking sign of
danger.

Then it flashed in to my
mind. My fad.
I had to go back.

At the front of my house
was a muddy car,
It must�ve been one of ITs
card-buddies.
There were four of them
in that gang,
I should hang all of them.

From the moment I took my
fad, I felt much better.
All the bad things started
to scatter.

At the way I noticed a
robbery at the Moe�s.
That�s when my interest
arouse.

I saw someone ran out
from the shop,
Throwing the gun away and
got a cop after him.

The cop catched him at
the end of the block.
And the one beside me,
said me to "move on, there
is nothing to see here".

I bet that they didn�t
see the gun yet,
But when they start to
think what did they miss,
they sit down to figure
out where the gun is.
Besides I hate cops,
including IT.
So I didn�t see the point
to mention about it,
and fitted all this in to
one word. "Shit."


I arrived to my grammy�s house,
It was nice to visit
there, to see someone
who�s fair and who I care.

Her memory had become
very bad, but sure thing
is that she definitely
is not sad.

She still laughs to
the postman,
who flees everytime he
sees her dog coming, with
no chance of peace.

I can still see her
teaching Dozer, to grab
the mailmans trouser.

"Grammy? Does the devil
exist?" I asked while
ITs fist gave a kind of
flashback in my mind.

"Yes, it shall be found
at very deep underground.
Or you could just go to
Bronx to see the hell
hound."

Grammy almost choke
to her inside joke,
She started to giggle
and jump in circles.
I couldn�t keep myself
from laughing myself.
I liked to see her in
so good health.

Grammy settled down and
spinned her ring.
"What makes you ask
that kind of thing?"

"Just boys in my class"
They shout �Look, the
devil� every time I
pass.

Oh, sweet dear, don�t
fear. Come here my
little reindeer.

I leaned to her warm
embrace and looked
her innocent face.

"I promice that no one
will hurt you. You have
my word."

"Is that blood I see on
your skirt",
I looked down and saw it
surrounded by dirt.

I started to fear, my hart
bump so hard that even she
could hear.

IT is going to kill me if
she tell about the blood,
then no one can save me,
not even the god.

I ran with fad in my arm
and left grammys farm.
I heard her shout something
behind,
but in that fear was hard
to find any clear words.

The whole block was a mess
of fog, i dryed my tears,
it helped.

I had arrived to home,
there was a light,
it danced under the window,
looked like a fire fight.

I didn't feel the fad in
my hand anymore, it had
changed to something else,
to something what uses
shells.

I was sitting on the ground,
and heard IT's drunky sound.
"What the hell are you doing
there", IT dropped beer on
the floor,
I raised the gun, pointed to
door.

Petri J�rvinen 2000